ya boyās finally moving to a place of his own
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I had a nice time looking at seagulls yesterday and wanted to use it to talk about watching my personality change. I decided I rather publish it even if I leave it a little incomplete
I really am so very sorry you had to leave your cat behind. I had to leave one behind under different circumstances once. It broke my heart and I still have regret. But I, too, think heād be happy, if he could understand, that my life has improved since leaving, and Iām sure Baxter would feel that way too about you. 
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Today I read a news article. Was amused by a detail of it. Made a blog postāmy first (slightly) longer post that made me use the other layout.
So glad you are getting out and into a place thatās more for you. Fork in the frying pan!? criminal
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Teenage angst at almost 40, and it aināt getting any better. 
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The Weekly Wrap Up is posted! Links this week include a recreation of MTV with parody songs, an Atlas of Space and a guide to sleeping in airports around the world. I talk about the kitty visitor I had, a cool new magazine I found and my thoughts on my first Blaugust. Plus, as usual, I listened to, read and watched things.
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i will forever be a stuck gear in whatever the fuck kind of machine this is supposed to be. but iām gonna try and figure out how to make it a fun time while iām here. i hope you figure it out too
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I made a post about plans for Smallweb September and what else Iām working on.
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If youāre anything like me, you like to postpone tasks until you canāt no longer, because the deadline is fast approaching. I need deadlines, and preferably ones that arenāt too far in the future.
Otherwise Iām just polishing my axe instead of cutting down the tree.
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Okay Iām probably like not the best to be talking about this shit lol, because im in my early 20s or something, but I always felt similarly.
I kinda just accepted that I was never going to considered ānormalā by society because, one, I am not; cis, straight, neurotypical, white, capitalistic or rich. And two, society cares only about the people that perpetuate the machine. Youāre only good when youāre considered useful or something. Thereās no harm in talking about how tired you are about masking your frustrations of it all even in the ripe old age of 40.
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trying something. worth a shot i suppose
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I have watched my wife go through, essentially, a disabling. When she went though breast cancer, and had great results from chemo, people assumed that she is now āwell.ā She is not. Her disability is not obvious. They canāt see the neuropathy in her feet that make her more prone to falling. They canāt see the pain caused by her maintenance drugs. They canāt see the lack of good sleep. They canāt see the diabetes she got from the powerful steroids used during chemo. They canāt see the changes to her self-image. The - list - goes -on. Yes, she is happy to be at this moment āno evidence of diseaseā, but she will tell you ā she is disabled now.
I write this because she just canāt really participate in āWeāre the super great breast cancer survivorsā groups who go out and swim and act like nothing happened (her words, essentially, not mine.)
It all just sucks, and yes, you have the right to react to things however you wish. You donāt owe anyone a damned thing.
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Thank you for these song! Especially I Am A Scientist! I have been sick the last few days - a cold - and feeling less that great. These songs made me feel better!
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@ConcreteLunch and @eladnarra, my wife is also a breast cancer survivor. She was 40 when she was diagnosed. Sheās alive, and cancer free, but sheās got chemo brain. Itās harder for her to focus, even on stuff that interests her. Itās harder for her to make herself do things she knows she should do.
And, given that she had her ovaries removed as part of her treatment because she was genetically predisposed for ovarian cancer, sheās gone through other changes that I wonāt discuss here. It changed her life, and not for the better. I live with it because itās better than living without her, but I remember the woman she had been before her diagnosis and I miss her. I just donāt let that stop me from loving the woman she is now.
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An update on my weight loss journey.
hii! been lurking for a while but first post here. this is my blog, im trying to update it more often!
uuh i cant include links in my posts?
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Welcome! Youāll be able to, after youāve been active for a while. Pretty sure you can put the link in your profile until then.
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Thank you - ironically words escape me, but your post really means a lot to me. 
@ConcreteLunch & @starbreaker - Iām sorry your wives have experienced something similar; theyāre really lucky to have understanding spouses. Breast cancer runs in my family, and I lost the genetic coin flip (inherited the mutated allele). Itās really frustrating how often the lifelong effects are ignored - even by doctors when it comes to chemical/surgical menopause and chemo brain.