As always, thank you for sharing your story. Good to hear Picrew is helping you to figure things about yourself. You are beautiful 
I would also be interested in reading more about your visual disability, if you want to write about it. I am dependent on glasses for most of my life, and very recently I got diagnosed with a genetic eye disease that can lead to loss of sight, which I am already planning to write about and publish on my website. Since I am also autistic, I have accepted that my disabilities are as much part of who I am as my queerness, so I want to share my story to let others who have similar conditions know that they’re not alone.